GOD, I’m starving this morning. And the apartment (once again) looks as though a tornado went through it.
I’m counting the days to spring break, and most importantly spring!
I already got one person to take action on my HRC action page! I’m so happy! I just with I could add more stuff to it. I’m sure there’s a way, but I don’t know how to yet.
I really wanted this to be a good entry, you know, interesting? But I’m so hungry I can’t think of anything else.
Last night while I was working I had another of those semi-religious experiences. I was coming back from a delivery (pizza, that is) and the sky was just beautiful -shades of aquadescending to the horizon where the last few rays of the past-set sun were turning the blues into greens. It was warm (Practically 40 degrees) and quiet. I love the night, I swear that “god” is closer to me then.
Working outside has always been a draw to me, and driving makes it fun, too. I’ve been struggling between the logic that tends to take precedence over my beliefs and the spirituality I feel so connected to. Faith is believing in something without reason, and I’ve always had a problem doing that. I mean, just because someone tells you to believe something -that’s just another human’s word. That’s not worth much these days, but I don’t know if it ever could have been something to stake one’s eternal soul on.
Most of my beliefs, though, are pretty ambiguous. I don’t believe there’s something more to life than the physical world we see just because someone told me to.
I really FEEL there’s something more to reality. When I look at the stars, why does my heart feel like it’s being lifted, pulled to join them? Why do I want to open my arms and embrace the sky sometimes?
Often we, as humans, feel the need to be special or desired. Perhaps the belief in diety/the spirit world gives us hope that we will someday be a part of something special. Or that we as humans can interact with these worlds, making us special or gifted. I don’t know, but I do believe that we are spiritual creatures as well as physical. It’s just that some people aren’t capable of sensing it -or don’t want to. I think emotions are a real connection to that reality too.