…What time is it? Grumble, grumble…

I was up late last night and now I’m tired. My mother was nice enough to keep Sebastian over night so I could belly dance and then have the evening. I’ve got the DVD at home now and I’ve belly danced almost every day this week.

Scored lots of cool jewelry last night from a friend who had an overabundance. I also discovered a really cool new stone… Petercite?

School’s been enjoyable lately. I’ve gone through a period of slight depression due to my ever-looming situation with Sebastian. I feel better now, and more in control than before.

Adam – Your comment was good. It made me feel better, and my father is already 62. He’s retiring at 65. He is NOT taking care of himself and I know the clock is ticking every minute that I’m here regardless of that. It just hurts to be reminded of it so matter-of-factly when he’s feeling like lashing out.

I had lunch with Randy yesterday. It was nice to see him. I’m still keeping in mind the space issue though. I enjoy his company and I want us to be friends, but I can’t open myself up to the physical attraction that always takes over. It’s frustrating to keep repeating the same cycle over and over. I won’t do it anymore. I feel stupid just thinking about it.

I accidentally left the patio door cracked last night and now it’s freezing in the living room. Sebastian’s fully dressed, though, so he’s pretty much okay.

Today I have a paper to start and plenty of reading to do. Since I dropped that physics class and lab, I have three hours today while Sebastian’s at daycare. Yippee!!!



4 thoughts on “…What time is it? Grumble, grumble…

  1. Miss Mary quite contrary I also agree with Oberon. I have seen you with your son. He is the most awesome child I have seen in ages. He is normal, well adjusted and obviously very loved. You are doing a FANTASTIC job. But you do need to take care of yourself first.
    I know almost everyone wants someone to share their life with but it will come. I am sure of it. You will find happiness but you need to know how to find it. Is anyone truly completely happy? I am not sure. I guess just look for the best in every situation.
    If you need extra time for yourself you could share Sebastian with me. I would take him once in a while to play with. I dont have any grandchildren yet just four grandkitties. And I dont get to see them very often.


    1. Mystery respondent
      I appreciate the comment and the advice. I also appreciate the offer to play with Sebastian sometimes, but since you didn’t sign your comment, I don’t know who you are!
      If you want to e-mail me we can open up a dialogue, but I don’t share my precious baby with strangers! =)Hope to hear from you!


      1. Re: Mystery respondent
        I’m pretty sure this was my mom. I’m not COMPLETELY sure… but…. pretty sure….
        And she forgets to sign her name. I will have to tell her.
        She reads all my friends journals.


      2. Re: Mystery respondent
        Yes it be me. I am sorry I am never sure how you all feel about me reading your journals. I kept journals for a long time while I was growing up. (Not of course that I am grown up yet). It is funny but your problems are not so different than my friends when we were going through the same life stage. And as for Sebastian, he is so adorable and if you do need a babysitter let me know but you have to bring him over more so he gets used to my house. oberons mom


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